About something that seems to be my pain in the you know what: running.
I had a race planned in 3 weeks but I got race nerves. Same thing happened when I signed up for a race in August and September: I got the nerves and didn’t go. Where some people train even more when that happens, I chicken out and skip runs.
I have thought a lot about this and decided I won’t be doing races this year. I want to be confident about my running and right now I’m not. I run for me, not for a race. I don’t have to prove anything to anyone, I do this to myself and why? I don’t know. To be honest I don’t really like races all that much, never have. I have always enjoyed the training for a race more. But got it in my head that when you run, you run races. Kind of stupid if you think about it, a race doesn’t define me as a runner.
So to make a long story short: I am just going to run and if I skip a run, I’ll do it next time. If a training doesn’t go as expected, I’ll do it again next run. No races, no pressure. And hopefully it makes me a stronger more confident runner who does maybe a race next year.
Right now I don’t know if I’ll ever race again. Maybe I do, maybe not. I am enjoying the long walks with Bella much more at the moment. We’ll see what happens. For now it’s just running and enjoy it because I got my joy in running back.
Turbofire HITT 30, 30 minutes
HITT workout of 5 x 2 drills of about 1 minute. I like HITT workouts, they are short but intense with enough time to recover between the drills. Good workout!
Because of my decision and the fact that I have skipped some trainings I took a step back in the training schedule and start again in week 6 of the 10 week program. This was a good run, I felt good and it all went smoothly. Before I went I had decided to try run the intervals at a pace of 6:40 which I did, even faster than that.
Distance: 4.2 K / 2.6 miles
Running: 2-3-5-5-5 minutes.
Paces: 6:36 – 6:26 – 6:16 – 6:17 – 6:25
Weather: dry, not much wind, 9C (48 degrees)
Last song on Ipod before finish: Wet Wet Wet – Sweet Surrender
Saturday October 5
I used the celeriac and leek from the Beebox and made a soup of it. I only added some garlic and chicken consommé. This was a recipe that came with the Beebox and although I had my doubts, it turned out to be delicious. I had some bread with it.
Sunday October 6
I used the carrotparsley, pumpkin and purple potatoes to make a stew. After I had the meat on for two hours I added the vegetables for the last minutes. That’s where it went wrong: I turned the gas a bit higher, got lost in the book I’m reading and next thing was that I smelled something was burned. It was my dish. I did eat some of it but it wasn’t that good, the meat was burned and the vegetables overcooked. This hardly ever happens to me but due to my book I forgot about it. Stupid because it smelled promising before it burned.
Monday October 7
Minced meat, purple potatoes (not special, taste the same as normal potatoes), cauliflower from the Beebox with some Hollandaise sauce.
Tuesday October 8
Made an oven dish of minced meat, red cabbage and mashed potatoes but the photo wasn’t good.